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Last year I got really deep -  Happy New Year, Everybody!I'd like to thank each and every one of you for helping me through this journey. It might have only half of a year I was with you, but you all have made those months easier to bare. You taught me that even if I don't like my work, someone will, and I'm happy to say that you guys were those someones. 2015 was full of troubles for me, but I guarantee that you made me laugh until I started to cry more than anyone ever has, even in real life. I may not know you, but I feel all of us have been childhood friends.
I'd like to thank EVlSCERATE for being there when no one else was.
I'd like to thank vvulpus for almost forcing me to bring out the best in me.
I'd like to thank CharliDrawz for being a really awesome friend when I thought I lost all of mine.
I'd like to thank tigerlynx24 for showing me the way.
I'm incredibly sorry if I did any grammar mistakes- I just want read right now (and watch dog documentaries XD). 0.o
So, please, let us remember the mistakes we've made in the past ye
. Expect a lot more deepness. I be taking you to Mariana Trench and I'll bring along my seestor cuz she's a fan of them.  

2016 was crazy. INSANE! I'm at that age where I'm "finding my place in life" so the world (and emotions) is like going on Bizzaro at Six Flags. Don't judge~
January- I'm really insecure about myself. I only talk to my friends during class and I eat lunch in a teacher's room, doing homework for no reason. I force myself not to eat- you can survive without food for 3 months, as long as you drink water. I cry myself to sleep very often. Why won't understand where I am? Who I am? WHY I am? I rely on others to make me happy (and chocolate, which I beat myself up about)

February- I'm still unsure of myself, but I'm starting to get out of my box. I confess my insecurities to a room full of people (with a few of my classmates in it). It makes me feel like eyes are everywhere, staring at me, judging me. This is the person they think is smart, awkward around guys, naive, and modest. Yeah, right. I am clueless, sassy (I wouldn't know that till later), whatever the opposite of naive is, and want all of the attention (the good kind). 

March- I finally sit with my friends, and I'm invited to my first sleepover in about 9 months. People actually come to my birthday party (I actually had one!). I'm shy, but at least I've broken down my walls.

May- I'm starting to get a hang of it! I listen to Lindsey Stirling talk about coming out of your shell and other motivational speakers. 

June- I believe I am completely in control. I am strong, I am me. The only thing I wasn't. Being with my friends made me shy and weird. I laughed too much to them, and I was different than what they thought. 

July- Still not me. The separation from my friends has made me more confident, which seemed really weird to me. 

August- I'm hella confident, sassy and comfortable in my own skin. It feels so amazing! Lindsey's album has just come out, and I thinks it's my cousin because I can relate to it so much. I'm ready to take on school!

September- The first day of school and I break down when I come home. It's my personal Hell. All of the confidence that I had washed down the drain the night before when I took a shower. I over think and over analyze. I am half a person. I can never be the person I want to be when I'm with my friends. 

October- I've gotten a handle on it, but I'm still not me yet. I'm shy. I'm not shy. I'm funny, and I own the ground I walk on (does that make me sound bratty?). Not at school. And I still can't be the person I want to be because I'm not what my sisters were and they will judge me if I'm different, right? You see a pattern here, right? My worst fear is people judging me. 

November- I'm cruising along with my music and confidence hidden in my shoes (once I put a study guide in my shoe for a test-I didn't get caught). I'm watching YouTube one day, and think that I need to BE MYSELF FOR ONCE. I don't care about what my friends think. 

December- My friends think I'm extremely fatigued or I had a lot of sugar. I walk with the confidence I always knew I had. Once one of my friends is really confused and doesn't talk to me until I try to say something funny. I'm making jokes and my family is laughing at me- am I actually funny? My friends don't laugh at my jokes... Right now my skin fits perfectly, and I don't worry about my friends, but I don't belong here. Part of me is trapped. I live in a really small town- I need to GET OUT. My dream is to live in a big city. The other day I went to NYC. I LOVED IT! It was crazy and everything is always moving. The rest of my family was dying to go home after awhile and just wanted the peace and quiet. I wanted to come back to my house so I could pack my things. 


Happy New Year, everyone! I hope 2016 was a good year for everyone, despite all of the bad that has occurred. If you still can't get over every terrible thing that happened this year, watch this video-  It'll make you forget about the bad ;)
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oh hai

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YOU BETTER VOTE FOR "THE ONLY PIRATE AT THE PARTY" FOR GOODREADS CHOICE AWARDS 2016!!! Vote for TOPATP here


Oh, hi, everyone! So... I just finished Heartless by Marissa Meyer. First off- what an incredible story line. I thought it would be really confusing since it's Wonderland. But it's actually easy to understand. Mad hats off to you, Marissa. Frankly, the ending is really haunting... I can't shake this really weird feeling away from me. It's indescribable and really strange. So now I'm listening to music (I'm w38pj on Spotify). So here I am, listening to music after reading a really odd book that I love and want to read again. God, the emotion Marissa brings is so strong! It felt really weird to smile after the ending- like I was cold inside and yeah I keep rambling. Oh, and by-the-bye - Heartless is also a GoodReads Choice Nominee. You better vote for it. 

So if your head is still on after reading Heartless by Marissa Meyer, put on a mad hat and quote the raven. 'We're all mad here' Emote Sign Don't forget to add in the Chesire smile. Oh! And don't eat any pumpkin treats- you have no idea where they've come from. Instead, have tea and showcase your talents. 

-LDFREE flying hearts Icon 
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vvulpus 
I knew your birthday was coming up in September, and so I checked yesterday what day it was. Turns out- it's tomorrow! With school and everything I couldn't make you anything and I feel so terrible. By the end of this month I PROMISE YOU I will have a gift for you. Do whatever it takes to remind me. Don't feel selfish or anything. Just harass me about it until I do it.  Have a wonderful birthday. Hope it's a magnificent one. :hug: :heart: -Love Dove  
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Monday
left me broken

Tuesday 
I was through with hoping

Wednesday
my empty arms were open 

Thursday
waiting for love, waiting for loving 

Thank the stars it's 
Friday

I'm burning like a fire gone wild on
Saturday

Guess I won't be coming to church on
:heart:Sunday:heart: 
I'll be waiting for love, waiting for love 






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On the first day of Bookmas, my true love gave to me...
1 pirate at the party!
On the second day of Bookmas, my true love gave to me...
an audiobook!
On the third day of Bookmas, Lindsey'll...
 follow you on Twitter! 
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5 trav'lling books!!!
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the first 8 words of the 8th chapter! 
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